its so wonderfull
to be warm againn
to have foodd
and moneyy

thank you Alex for tellingg
that you livee
right down that streett
that you had a key hiddenn

thank you for the entertainment
and the games we playedd
with your puppyy
fun wasnt itt

wish you had stayed consciouss
it would have beenn
muchh
more funn








karM

look at thiss
a city filled with friendly facess
a city filled with mothers rushing their kidss
away from mee

though i wont denyy
is a good idea to do thatt
i enjoy a little gamee
once in a while whilee

but im not scaryy
nope not even slightlyy
the children love a good storyy
a story aboutt

where the bad children goo
the bad children that screamm
and shoutt
and about the bad kids that run awayy










karM

Well I guess I got a belated gift from Four.
A dead little girl. So Im just going to assume that Four forced everyone but Five back in the hallows of my mind, hiked to the closet town, found and abducted a kid then ground every bone in that poor girls body to dust then  put a boot through her skull then went to sleep then I woke up.
Could you imagine explaining that? 'Merry belated christmas I kidnapped your child then killed her, but its okay because a voice in my head did it.' But fuck that guy is really not helping me here, hes all whispering to me explaining that I need to find a house, filled with eight dead people, and yesterday I cursed at him and then he was all but your mine then I woke up.
I think Im fucked.
no shitt

we wish you a merry christmas
WE wish YOU a MERRY christmas.
we wish you a merry christmas andd
A HORRID NEW YEAR

bad tidings he brings for you and your kinn            
bad tidings for christmass
AND a HORRID new YEAR.


oh bring us a little rabbit                                        
oh bring us a little rabbit
OH BRING US A LITTLE RABBIT AND A SAFE PLACE TO HIDE

we wont go until we get onee                              
we wont go until we get onee
we wont go until we get one so bring one right here

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS
we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas and a horrid new yearr






i blame Two for this horrible mess





karM

Ah ha I knew it, it is what I read it that book long ago. It is the man, tall and skittish.
That man means Four screwed me over, I know he could have killed rabbits with out my meds, and that man means I desperately need them. It truly surprises me that Two let Four do that shit. He always made sure I had at least ten pills on me at ALL times.

...
....
.....
Now what?

What the fuck is that?
Its like a ball of black dead vines, but it wriggling and making a noise that hurts my ears.
It whispered secrets to me as I crept ever closer, it sounded as the orphans did. Laughter, screams and cries of pain and sadness. It sounds as my mother did, yelling over a book. It sounds as the people? No, creatures following me. Sadness, anger, and pity.
Vae Victis.
Pity me not.
Just please stop.
I only hear mother and her anger.
Her anger at me finding my fathers books.
Then her hatred as she left me to the crow.
The crow of white and black.
C'est la vie I do suppose.
you and your stupid fucking frenchh
oh shut your trap

So I found out today that Four fed and killed rabbits with my medication.
That really pisses me off because Four is just trying to piss me off now, fucking sadistic bastard.
oh cry me a riverr

Well I also realised I only know my name.
Thats it, no birthday, no age, no idea of most of my past. Im either fucking stupid or worse off than I originally though, or anybody thought for that matter. I doubt that my meds would have even done anything even if I did have them. About the age thing, I think I must be older then fifteen by now, but god for all I know I might be thirty two and still the height of a fucking eight year old.

Worse part of this is the fact of I keep hear and seeing shit. Like maybe two or three hours ago I saw something that I remember from a story book in my family library. I couldnt read a word of it, but it was a tall man and a young girl. Then, I keep finding dead animals, and theres a giant girl running after me. Oh about her, this morning she woke me up by pushing me out of the tree I was sleeping in.
Fuck One, what the hell did you let Four do?
nothing he did it himself

Hello?
Is anyone there. Im really fucking confused, I woke up god knows where twenty feet up a tree with nothing but this laptop. I opened it to find this page open.


Good god its fucking 2011. I dont even remember 2005. Im missing EIGHT YEARS of memory, and to add to that I woke up smelling like feet wrapped in rotten leather bacon in a fucking tree with the ever there voices in my head. They are wayyy to loud for comfort.

I also read through this confusing ass blog and it makes no sense, other than my name and the numbers, its all fuzzy and confusing. The voices are bitching at me, and its fucking constant. Oh Mark you should have let me take control. Mark your a fool. Mark you are not fit to run us. Well you can go fuck your self.
Two, you must know whats going on here, so why dont you spit it out.

OH FUCKING JOY now that is very fucking interesting, Im seeing flashes of black out of the corner of my eye, and a giggle floats through the trees, theres a dead rabbit hanging five feet below me, dripping and dripping. Its driving me crazy. I need to find them, where are they, where are they. Fuck Four why did you hide them on me, I need them, I was given them for a reason, I know you have them Four. I know you do.

welll
there is nothing more fun thenn
putting innocent people through helll
am i rightt

of course i amm
so thats why im goingg
to let lose helll
on threee

ill still be around thoughh
dont worryy
im not leavingg
not for a long timee

ill be back in timee
for the holidayy
that reminds me thatt
im an atheistt





karM

where have all the children gonee


the creaking silence of age echos through the streets sounds like old wooden floors underr heavy feett
all of the children once running around have evacuated or maybe they've justt
dissapearedd
where have all the children gonee?

just yesterday they were tieing ribbons in trees and swinging from the branches they were leaping overr hot coals and swooning at anything where have all the children gonee?
those of us who remain wonder around like abandoned children in shopping mallss
where have all the children gonee?

maybe this is just a dream maybe we are sleeping in rooms filled with metal shelvess
if we put our ears to those shelves they would tell us story's of how they were emptiedd
emptied by the fingers of fathers emptied into the flesh of their sons and daughterss
where have all the children gonee?

we hope their hiding, we hope their playing a gamee
but we know this is really happenningg
where have all the children gonee?
 Joseph Kerschbaum






karM

oh good god thats funnyy
i found the box that was supposed to house a gunn
but guess whatt
bitch stole it from the boxx

when i find herr
i can promise you that im goingg
to put a boot in her skulll
ill find my special dek of cards and shred her to ribbonss

maybe  i could let Fivee
off his leash for a bitt
he would have much fun with thatt
yeS he wOUld INdeeDd







Karm

do you knoww
what my most preferred hobbyy
would have to be iss
magicc

its all about
trickeryy
and liess
and deception as welll

my favouritee
trickk
is making the rabbit dissapearr
by shoving it in a wood chipperr

its quite pretty reallyy
i sometimes wonderr
what patterns a person would makee
if i did the trick with themm






karM

so sickk
but finallyy
i found the camp againn
or whats leftt

its rather funnyy
because everythings wayy
to high for me to reachh
the trees are to thin to climbb

when i found it i laughedd
the only thing thats not in a treee
is stuffed rabbit a a frozen bowl off
a soup like mixtureee

but either wayy
i hear the dead are nott
as they seemm
it truely the undead heree



karM

now that ivee
lets sayy
handled thee
situationn

im here to stayy
or atleast untill
One figures out howw
to get a lock offf

but thats quite hardd
for there is no barss
nor a lockk
only Five in his wayy

so in other words a brick walll
heh fun isnt Twoo
under my rulee in how longg
well its gonna be some funn




karM

someOnes a terrible liarr
arent they noww
we were never freee
certain people just like to liee

maybe we should do to them what they did to mee
hmm how about thatt
maybee
i would no longer be boredd


how about a short gamee
with very littlee
to no meaningg
while i plann

yes yes a gamee
how about itt
myy
friendss




karM

ive relized
we happen to be
quite
secritive
and
friends
and never true

friends turn bad
with in seconds
its unpreditcable with fear
is it not

it makes me wonder
whos the wolfs and sheeps clothing


and as of the tall bitch
she towers like
a tower above me and eight feet tall

but why





karM

amazing

trip
fall
land in the snow

look up to see no more trees
just a road


im free
im out
i can eat more than rabbits

im out and quite mad

but it must be a plan for my demise



oh well





karM