its so wonderfull
to be warm againn
to have foodd
and moneyy

thank you Alex for tellingg
that you livee
right down that streett
that you had a key hiddenn

thank you for the entertainment
and the games we playedd
with your puppyy
fun wasnt itt

wish you had stayed consciouss
it would have beenn
muchh
more funn








karM

look at thiss
a city filled with friendly facess
a city filled with mothers rushing their kidss
away from mee

though i wont denyy
is a good idea to do thatt
i enjoy a little gamee
once in a while whilee

but im not scaryy
nope not even slightlyy
the children love a good storyy
a story aboutt

where the bad children goo
the bad children that screamm
and shoutt
and about the bad kids that run awayy










karM

Well I guess I got a belated gift from Four.
A dead little girl. So Im just going to assume that Four forced everyone but Five back in the hallows of my mind, hiked to the closet town, found and abducted a kid then ground every bone in that poor girls body to dust then  put a boot through her skull then went to sleep then I woke up.
Could you imagine explaining that? 'Merry belated christmas I kidnapped your child then killed her, but its okay because a voice in my head did it.' But fuck that guy is really not helping me here, hes all whispering to me explaining that I need to find a house, filled with eight dead people, and yesterday I cursed at him and then he was all but your mine then I woke up.
I think Im fucked.
no shitt

we wish you a merry christmas
WE wish YOU a MERRY christmas.
we wish you a merry christmas andd
A HORRID NEW YEAR

bad tidings he brings for you and your kinn            
bad tidings for christmass
AND a HORRID new YEAR.


oh bring us a little rabbit                                        
oh bring us a little rabbit
OH BRING US A LITTLE RABBIT AND A SAFE PLACE TO HIDE

we wont go until we get onee                              
we wont go until we get onee
we wont go until we get one so bring one right here

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS
we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas and a horrid new yearr






i blame Two for this horrible mess





karM

Ah ha I knew it, it is what I read it that book long ago. It is the man, tall and skittish.
That man means Four screwed me over, I know he could have killed rabbits with out my meds, and that man means I desperately need them. It truly surprises me that Two let Four do that shit. He always made sure I had at least ten pills on me at ALL times.

...
....
.....
Now what?

What the fuck is that?
Its like a ball of black dead vines, but it wriggling and making a noise that hurts my ears.
It whispered secrets to me as I crept ever closer, it sounded as the orphans did. Laughter, screams and cries of pain and sadness. It sounds as my mother did, yelling over a book. It sounds as the people? No, creatures following me. Sadness, anger, and pity.
Vae Victis.
Pity me not.
Just please stop.
I only hear mother and her anger.
Her anger at me finding my fathers books.
Then her hatred as she left me to the crow.
The crow of white and black.
C'est la vie I do suppose.
you and your stupid fucking frenchh
oh shut your trap

So I found out today that Four fed and killed rabbits with my medication.
That really pisses me off because Four is just trying to piss me off now, fucking sadistic bastard.
oh cry me a riverr

Well I also realised I only know my name.
Thats it, no birthday, no age, no idea of most of my past. Im either fucking stupid or worse off than I originally though, or anybody thought for that matter. I doubt that my meds would have even done anything even if I did have them. About the age thing, I think I must be older then fifteen by now, but god for all I know I might be thirty two and still the height of a fucking eight year old.

Worse part of this is the fact of I keep hear and seeing shit. Like maybe two or three hours ago I saw something that I remember from a story book in my family library. I couldnt read a word of it, but it was a tall man and a young girl. Then, I keep finding dead animals, and theres a giant girl running after me. Oh about her, this morning she woke me up by pushing me out of the tree I was sleeping in.
Fuck One, what the hell did you let Four do?
nothing he did it himself

Hello?
Is anyone there. Im really fucking confused, I woke up god knows where twenty feet up a tree with nothing but this laptop. I opened it to find this page open.


Good god its fucking 2011. I dont even remember 2005. Im missing EIGHT YEARS of memory, and to add to that I woke up smelling like feet wrapped in rotten leather bacon in a fucking tree with the ever there voices in my head. They are wayyy to loud for comfort.

I also read through this confusing ass blog and it makes no sense, other than my name and the numbers, its all fuzzy and confusing. The voices are bitching at me, and its fucking constant. Oh Mark you should have let me take control. Mark your a fool. Mark you are not fit to run us. Well you can go fuck your self.
Two, you must know whats going on here, so why dont you spit it out.

OH FUCKING JOY now that is very fucking interesting, Im seeing flashes of black out of the corner of my eye, and a giggle floats through the trees, theres a dead rabbit hanging five feet below me, dripping and dripping. Its driving me crazy. I need to find them, where are they, where are they. Fuck Four why did you hide them on me, I need them, I was given them for a reason, I know you have them Four. I know you do.

welll
there is nothing more fun thenn
putting innocent people through helll
am i rightt

of course i amm
so thats why im goingg
to let lose helll
on threee

ill still be around thoughh
dont worryy
im not leavingg
not for a long timee

ill be back in timee
for the holidayy
that reminds me thatt
im an atheistt





karM

where have all the children gonee


the creaking silence of age echos through the streets sounds like old wooden floors underr heavy feett
all of the children once running around have evacuated or maybe they've justt
dissapearedd
where have all the children gonee?

just yesterday they were tieing ribbons in trees and swinging from the branches they were leaping overr hot coals and swooning at anything where have all the children gonee?
those of us who remain wonder around like abandoned children in shopping mallss
where have all the children gonee?

maybe this is just a dream maybe we are sleeping in rooms filled with metal shelvess
if we put our ears to those shelves they would tell us story's of how they were emptiedd
emptied by the fingers of fathers emptied into the flesh of their sons and daughterss
where have all the children gonee?

we hope their hiding, we hope their playing a gamee
but we know this is really happenningg
where have all the children gonee?
 Joseph Kerschbaum






karM

oh good god thats funnyy
i found the box that was supposed to house a gunn
but guess whatt
bitch stole it from the boxx

when i find herr
i can promise you that im goingg
to put a boot in her skulll
ill find my special dek of cards and shred her to ribbonss

maybe  i could let Fivee
off his leash for a bitt
he would have much fun with thatt
yeS he wOUld INdeeDd







Karm

do you knoww
what my most preferred hobbyy
would have to be iss
magicc

its all about
trickeryy
and liess
and deception as welll

my favouritee
trickk
is making the rabbit dissapearr
by shoving it in a wood chipperr

its quite pretty reallyy
i sometimes wonderr
what patterns a person would makee
if i did the trick with themm






karM

so sickk
but finallyy
i found the camp againn
or whats leftt

its rather funnyy
because everythings wayy
to high for me to reachh
the trees are to thin to climbb

when i found it i laughedd
the only thing thats not in a treee
is stuffed rabbit a a frozen bowl off
a soup like mixtureee

but either wayy
i hear the dead are nott
as they seemm
it truely the undead heree



karM

now that ivee
lets sayy
handled thee
situationn

im here to stayy
or atleast untill
One figures out howw
to get a lock offf

but thats quite hardd
for there is no barss
nor a lockk
only Five in his wayy

so in other words a brick walll
heh fun isnt Twoo
under my rulee in how longg
well its gonna be some funn




karM

someOnes a terrible liarr
arent they noww
we were never freee
certain people just like to liee

maybe we should do to them what they did to mee
hmm how about thatt
maybee
i would no longer be boredd


how about a short gamee
with very littlee
to no meaningg
while i plann

yes yes a gamee
how about itt
myy
friendss




karM

ive relized
we happen to be
quite
secritive
and
friends
and never true

friends turn bad
with in seconds
its unpreditcable with fear
is it not

it makes me wonder
whos the wolfs and sheeps clothing


and as of the tall bitch
she towers like
a tower above me and eight feet tall

but why





karM

amazing

trip
fall
land in the snow

look up to see no more trees
just a road


im free
im out
i can eat more than rabbits

im out and quite mad

but it must be a plan for my demise



oh well





karM

i hate having to admit
that those last two posts
were mistakes

but

admit your mistake
learn your mistake
and never ever
do it again






karM

sighh

everyone is so boringg
does no one want to playy
no one will even humor mee
thats a shamee


welll


im not about to waste my time outt
of my celll
so tell mee
what do you want to knoww





karM

im betrayingg
shhhh
no one hass to knoww

ive solved a puzzelll
of colors to many times to countt

so my brilant friendss

whos up for a game or fourr





karM

i find it funny
that she wouldnt leave food
or money
but  instead she left a rubiks cube

thats a joke it must be
for ive solved thirty three
when i lived with John and Anne


she has some crude humor
you see






karM

i think its just dawned on me that most not all tall people are bitches
the bitches and dicks in school would always pick on the shorter people

just think for a second to the guy who pushed you
into the wall that one time only for you to snap your wrist

or the chick who screamed that you had tried to stab her
when your pocket knife was hidden in you locker

or your parents who gave you up for adoption
just beacause your a little crazy

or fear who lurks just beyond your veiw
trying to make you a mindless zombie


now this whole post may seem quite random
but its not
bitch grew about a foot and a half in about three days
thats right this bitch is now two feet  taller than myself at six foot something
that worries me
how does a human grow that fast



karM

lets see if your a liar or not
my friend will gladly take a gift such
as that


on another note
the moutains are not even
slightly closer even
after two days of walking
 I think I either walked in circles
or its all fake
fear seems to be able to do that




karM

the trees above fears sight
show nothing but the night
no road no light
i hate height

i hate the fear chasing me
hunting me

its annoying to say the least
but at least i found a source of power
from the fucking calculator i was choked with this morning
its quite useless for the lack of sun as of late

i found tracks
human
i hope it was the brat
for i plan to pluck her eyes out

other than that
i see a moutain
i travled about three thousand miles
if im right on where i am
i started in sourthern canada and ended up
in the northern part
near jasper





karM

I
SWEAR IF  I FIND YOU I WILL
FUCKING GUT YOU LIKE THE SWINE YOU ARE
YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SO SMART
DIRECTING THAT FUCKING FEAR TO WAKE ME UP
AT FOUR AM OF ALL THE TIMES POSSIBLE
MILES AND MILES AWAY FROM FOOD WARMTH OR POWER
I KNOW THAT IN A FEW DAYS THIS LAPTOP WILL DIE AND I
WILL HAVE ALL THE FUCKING TIME I NEED TO HUNT YOU DOWN
AND PUT AN ARROW THROUGH YOUR HEART
AND YOU CANT SAY I DIDNT WARN YOU
I DID HERE
YOU KNEW MY BASE CAMP
SO YOU KNOW OF THIS


NO MERCY


R.I.P BUBBLES THE KITTEN




karM

last night
or early this morning
it finally snowed
it was like earth was paying its
respects
and it was the start of my real
fight
because that brat
left another key
it isnt even cut

so i tracked them down
they happen to be
a thirteen year old girl hiding in plain sight
im not going to let a little brat
scare me

so i took the cat
and left a note
and if shes to leave
any more shit for me
her cute little kitten will be
no more


if you got a problem with thatt
if you hate me for itt
well fuck youu

Isa wunjo-ansuz-nauthiz-nauthiz-ansuz kenaz-isa-laguz-laguz isa-teiwaz






karM

 A FUCKING SHED. THATS IT.
THERE WASNT EVEN ANYTHING IN THE PILE OF SHIT.
ONLY ANOTHER FUCKING ANGEL.

LETS HOPE THAT LITTLE FUCK HAS AN AMAZING HIDING PLACE.
BECAUSE ONE COULD ONLY GUESS WHAT ILL DO TO THEM.


i wish i coulddd
just forgive anddd
forgettt






karM

the box

a threat

someone
had the guts
to go to my home
and leave a threat

they left a card
my favouite of cards
the five of hearts
held in place with tape
reading 'GO AWAY'

they left me one screw
a roll of tape
an angel trapped in a clear stone
and taped to it was a key

they scratched LEAVE
in
THE
boxx

timme for a huntt
NO mercy will be
shownn to THEM




karM

when i got back to the dark
i found a box
a cigar box
sitting
just sitting

it has the word gift wrote on it
illegable words on the side
is tape shut now the only
question is do i open it




karM

i forgot the girl
she was waiting for me

she had a knife and cut
my arm this is
not over not even close

the hunt
has begun
and it will continue





karM

oh didnt i say
the younge one would belive
oh he does
maybe to well
OH WELL

but now
oh yes now
we have a hunt
to start
he belives deep in his heart
that he is safe from us

so on the count of five
i dispose of the girl filled with flys
 and the hunt will start



karM

...


still silent
non responsive


is there a thing to do
but watch the flys
do what they do
eating and hatching


the boredom of time
is never ending
i need more
things to do



karM

have i made a friend
could it be true

they know much
maybe to much

maybe not

the cold is boring

having someone to talk with
might
make it better



karM

thats my line

to use it as a name

is saddining at the least

i say it now and never again

thats my line




karM

karM here with boredom held dear.

the girl in the white hat has passed on

your sweet deer has bought the farm


or so i would guess
my dear friend who sits higher in the world than the rest took her


who knows my deer Friends maybe me and the high one will take a vist to the youngest one, he would belive, dont you think?





karM

seeeeeeeeeeeeE

thefun in the room in the back of the dark tall where dogs and little girls in white hats roam

find


find


find

the
dark

seek


seek


seek

the
dark

room







marK

bored like always
she always seems to find me
though she is not the only onee









karM

mistake

mistake to
see
mistake to
talk
many many
many each
and every
day




karm

story timeee

once he was young
he still is
foolish
still so foolish
hes to hard to see
with the eye in the night
the night is cover
so is where dogs roam.

karM

... ... ...

and that tree held up the sky

and held down hell

if it were to be chopped down



the world would die